Object Permanence

photo by catherine campbell

Object Permanence

third year srija sengupta

Underneath the sheafs of paper

Post it notes I’ve saved for later

Lies the card you gave me last year

I’ve read it once or twice or thrice

I loved the words, they’re really nice

I never told you while you were here

And it’s not you, I swear it’s me

I do this every time, you see

Rushing on, forgetting the world won’t 

If it’s out of sight, it’s out of mind

And I’m running wild on broken time

And my shoulds, my coulds, my woulds become my… don’ts

Chorus:

I can’t promise 

A happy ending, there’s no pretending

I’m not someone who’ll screw you over

I try to change it, rearrange yet

I don’t know how to pull you closer

I keep forgetting, keep regretting

And I know I can’t give you closure

So here’s that apology text I never sent

Not for trying, but for lack of commitment

I never meant to hurt anyone

The creeping silence is a loaded gun

Aimed for the sky but it shot through your heart

Now Cupid’s laughing from every corner

“Stupid fool, did no one warn ya,

What happens when you go too (fucking) far?”

Chorus:

I can’t promise 

A happy ending, there’s no pretending

I’m not someone who’ll screw you over

I try to change it, rearrange yet

I don’t know how to pull you closer

I keep forgetting, keep regretting

And I know I can’t give you closure

So here’s that apology text I never sent

Not for trying, but for lack of commitment

Bridge:

Such a shame, such a waste, the story of a child who never learned sense

They grew up to be beautiful and cold with no object permanence

Chorus:

I can’t promise 

A happy ending, there’s no pretending

And I know that I screwed you over

I try to change it, rearrange yet

I swear someone else will pull you closer

I won’t forget this, won’t regret this

And I hope I can give you closure

So here’s that apology text I never sent

Not for trying, but for lack of commitment