fourth year annette aguilar

in love with you - erykah badu

i am starting september off with love. the idea of if it is always so exhilarating. maybe september is it’s time.

same ol mistakes - rihanna

or maybe not. will i ever not send that late night text(s)? when will i learn to stop indulging in self-sabotage? what does it even mean to learn from your mistakes?

self care - mac miller

i (once again) reassess what it is that i want from myself. what i expect from others. how i want to maintain my relationships, both romantically and platonically. it all feels heavy but i'm glad mac made music when he did.

que nadie sepa mi sufrir (let no one know my suffering) by la sonora dinamita and margarita

nothing makes you feel better than rhythm, at least that’s what i like to think, and this right here, makes you want to dance. when was the last time you danced?

juice - lizzo

if you ever want to feel like you’re the baddest of the bad, this is it. even if my hair is going on three days unwashed, even if my chin is breaking out from “maskne,” and even if i may not look like my instagram pictures at the moment: i still feel like the baddest bitch ever. thanks lizzo.

SULA (paperback) - jamila woods

i’m listening to the rain (it’s been a rainy month) and i can’t help but think how amazing i feel. yes, there are some days where getting out of bed is harder than the rest, but the fact that i’m here, means it's all okay. the universe wanted me here at this time, with all the good and the bad, and the bad and more bad, but also the good and the really good. it’s all here within the grasp of my hands.

another lover - little dragon

i realize that after all, i’m always filled with love. even on days where i’m not exactly sure what it means to walk on my own two feet, i try. loving myself is something i’m used to doing each and every day, even in the smallest of ways. loving others has become less of a task but a way i can exist. and it all feels real.

as the month comes to an end, these songs (and others) have helped me reflect on what i was feeling. from feeling awkward after one night stands to feeling as light as a feather as i danced around my room. i’m allowing myself to be vulnerable through music. when i can’t quite put what i’m feeling into cohesive thoughts, i find that there’s always a song for it. so, i present to you september’s songs. thank you september for reminding me of how far i’ve come.

please listen at your own leisure and pace, after all, our emotions move to the beat of their own drum.

happy listening!

September’s Songs